Words on a page.. Simply that.

This sucks. I just want you to tell me that this is all just not real and that we can go back to how things were back before. I want you to tell me that this kid who seems to not give a fuck about you doesn’t matter at all. I want to be able to constantly cuddle with you and not sit in opposite corners of the room. This fucking sucks, and it hurts more than anything I’ve ever experienced. I’m hurting, and there’s only one thing that can make me feel better.. And that’s being able to call you mine. I love you.

Friends

I haven’t posted too much on here in a while because I have been going through a lot lately. I have basically changed my entire group of friends. The people I have let myself be surrounded by for the past few months are not people that I want anything to do with ever again, and that’s all I’m going to say about them. (If you don’t like what I have to say, go fuck yourself this is MY blog!) But the people I am around every single day nowadays are the most wonderful people I’ve ever met. They are always happy to see me and they haven’t made fun of me.. not even once. They don’t drain my confidence but instead they build it up. I used to hang out with these people during the fall but we all sort of drifted away as the weather got colder. But now we are all getting to be very tight-knit again and I love it! Sydney, I love hanging out with you everyday, you have a great heart and crack me up. Jake, you’re just the shit man.. really. I don’t understand why you aren’t the most confident dude in the world because you should be. I wish I was as good at anything as you are at guitar. Lewis, I have never ever had anything bad to say about you at all. I love you man, you’re awesome. Everyone else, I love you. I love this weather! It’s in the 70’s consistently and the trees are sprouting and the sun is even staying out until around 7:30-8:00! Winter is over in one week, even though it feels like it’s been over for two weeks now. It’s almost 2:00 A.M. right now and I can’t sleep because I’m so excited for 12 hours from now. I’m having a cookout! All of my closest friends are coming over and we are cooking burgers and hotdogs and even some steaks and just enjoying each other’s company. It’s gonna be a great time. But that’s the thing, every day when we all hang out is a great time! I love you guys, you have showed me true friendship.. and for that I’m forever grateful.

I want

To feel again! To be honest, I haven’t been absolutely head over heels about a girl in three years now. I’ve liked girls yeah, but I haven’t had anybody strike my heart so hard that it brings me to my knees.. As unpleasant as that sounds, I want it. I want a girl that I can text all the time.. especially when all my friends are texting their significant others. Right now when that happens I literally just hop on twitter which isn’t fun anymore! I need a girl to devote my attention to, because there are some very harsh realities of this world that I just don’t want to or have the ability to deal with alone. I know this is such just a needy whiny rant, but I think about it constantly and I am constantly wondering what’s really wrong with me.. Why can’t I attract the females I want and when I do why can’t I get them to stay? I am tired of being alone! I am tired of driving aimlessly into the night without somebody sitting next to me to hold onto. I’m tired of being one of the singles in my group of friends.
Sincerely,
Romeo

I need to get away for a while

but don’t we all? I don’t really know what I’m trying to say here.. Where are you? You are where I want to be. I guess I think that if I just elude my problems by escaping the locations they tend to be, I can get rid of them completely. It’s kind of childish really, but I don’t care. Spring starts in 16 days from today and I need to start bracing myself for it. I have this image of spring in my head that it will immediately be in the high 70s and the trees will all be green and it will be light outside until 8 at night, when in reality, that is going to take another month or two to happen. I don’t really care though, because 16 days from now, I can happily say that it will only be getting warmer from there on out. I need to escape until then. Fuck.

Leave me things in my ask!!

Since I finally got it to work!